[ Rantaro can be oblivious, but he's not that oblivious. He can understand what Kokichi is implying... but that doesn't mean he's really expecting it either. Kokichi never really seemed interested before. ]
Something like what?
[ Yeah if it's what he thinks it is, he's gonna make him say it. It's a little too... sudden for his taste, but he supposes he's flattered Kokichi sees him as an option now.
Rantaro just... doesn't have it in him not to be serious about a relationship. ]
What, you make grand promises about staying together forever and now you're gonna make me say it? Goddamn.
[He puffs his cheeks out.]
I spelled it out for you, dumdum. You know! I know! Mmn! If you're going to say 'no, wait, not like that', just say it! I know I'm not some hot idol boy!
[and now he's instinctively mentally guarding himself]
I guess I'm just surprised. You weren't interested before. At least not that I could tell.
[ He sort of shakes his head lightly when Kokichi brings up the idols ]
I'm not that shallow Kokichi, you know that. It isn't as though I was interested in any of them for their looks.
[ He shifts his hold slightly so he can look at Kokichi head on. ]
I would have stayed with you even in a completely platonic way. The promise is separate from this. I just... take relationships very seriously. It's why I don't really flirt with anyone.
[ Even saying that, he moves to cup Kokichi's cheek so the other boy will look at him, his thumb just barely brushing his lower lip ]
But if that doesn't scare you... I'm not opposed to the idea.
Uh, I told you multiple times! I think! You're one of the boys I really liked....with Shuichi and Kaito and Keeboy... [kokichi oma? boy-crazy? maybe a bit...]
Well, yeah. But they're also charming and caring and capable and better than me and...I know what I'm not and what other people are.
[him and his self-loathing]
...Yeah, but I would've been super upset. I go off with a guy somewhere, I'm going to get attached. Some hot guy steps in, I'll get super envious... I'm fine with one or two, though. But I want trust...
To be fair, it was hard to tell when you were serious or teasing. Calling me nii-chan gave the wrong impression, too.
[ People can joke all they want, but he's sincerely not into that.
He does like to dote though, he can see where the wires got crossed. ]
Their strengths are different from yours, but that doesn't mean you're lesser than them.
[ That's enough about that, though ]
Mm. I just told you I take these things seriously. I wouldn't joke about it, nor would I say it if I didn't think we had a chance. I do think we should get to know each other better in general though.
[ What feelings they have aren't really based on much given the three months or so they've known each other and this was very spur of the moment during a very emotionally vulnerable time. They both probably needed to take a step back and think rationally. Rantaro certainly was capable of returning his feelings but it might take a bit to feel secure in that.
They've both been hurt before. He doesn't want to hurt Kokichi more. ]
[ Even an attempt at trust is a big step for Kokichi, and he knows that. Rantaro accepts the kiss on the cheek and returns the gesture with a kiss on the forehead. ]
I didn't ever plan on leaving you, and I certainly won't now.
[ Kokichi was the one trying to fling himself into the void, Rantaro only ran into a blazing church to save a child. Which they both did, he can't be judged. ]
It is pretty late, though. Is there anything you wanted to say or ask me right now, or... would you rather lay down and get some sleep?
[ He's fine with bedsharing and small kisses. Besides, snuggling might help Kokichi sleep, it's not necessarily a romantic gesture. ]
[Kokichi pauses. The faintest hint of a smirk flickers onto his face.]
You know, if things were just like normal, I'd tease you for finding a prime opportunity to keep me close. But you're probably even more of a gentleman than Gonta. So that doesn't mean anything.
[Which is odd, because he's so used to being...no, wait, even then declarations were being made to protect him. When did he become some kind of princess?]
I'm fine with getting some rest. But I'm gonna cuddle you, okay?
[Not necessarily, but Kokichi's definitely not opposed to the thought.]
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Something like what?
[ Yeah if it's what he thinks it is, he's gonna make him say it. It's a little too... sudden for his taste, but he supposes he's flattered Kokichi sees him as an option now.
Rantaro just... doesn't have it in him not to be serious about a relationship. ]
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......
What, you make grand promises about staying together forever and now you're gonna make me say it? Goddamn.
[He puffs his cheeks out.]
I spelled it out for you, dumdum. You know! I know! Mmn! If you're going to say 'no, wait, not like that', just say it! I know I'm not some hot idol boy!
[and now he's instinctively mentally guarding himself]
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[ He sort of shakes his head lightly when Kokichi brings up the idols ]
I'm not that shallow Kokichi, you know that. It isn't as though I was interested in any of them for their looks.
[ He shifts his hold slightly so he can look at Kokichi head on. ]
I would have stayed with you even in a completely platonic way. The promise is separate from this. I just... take relationships very seriously. It's why I don't really flirt with anyone.
[ Even saying that, he moves to cup Kokichi's cheek so the other boy will look at him, his thumb just barely brushing his lower lip ]
But if that doesn't scare you... I'm not opposed to the idea.
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Well, yeah. But they're also charming and caring and capable and better than me and...I know what I'm not and what other people are.
[him and his self-loathing]
...Yeah, but I would've been super upset. I go off with a guy somewhere, I'm going to get attached. Some hot guy steps in, I'll get super envious... I'm fine with one or two, though. But I want trust...
[but then.
huaaaaaha.]
....Y--You're sure? Huh? You're really sure?
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[ People can joke all they want, but he's sincerely not into that.
He does like to dote though, he can see where the wires got crossed. ]
Their strengths are different from yours, but that doesn't mean you're lesser than them.
[ That's enough about that, though ]
Mm. I just told you I take these things seriously. I wouldn't joke about it, nor would I say it if I didn't think we had a chance. I do think we should get to know each other better in general though.
[ What feelings they have aren't really based on much given the three months or so they've known each other and this was very spur of the moment during a very emotionally vulnerable time. They both probably needed to take a step back and think rationally. Rantaro certainly was capable of returning his feelings but it might take a bit to feel secure in that.
They've both been hurt before. He doesn't want to hurt Kokichi more. ]
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[He closes his eyes. Kokichi lets out a little sigh.]
Then we can try. I...
[He presses a kiss to his cheek.]
...I'll try to trust you. You're the only one who I really can. Just don't leave me, 'kay? We'll take it slow...
[He says. He seems more vulnerable than normal, too. Despite it all, his walls are down.]
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I didn't ever plan on leaving you, and I certainly won't now.
[ Kokichi was the one trying to fling himself into the void, Rantaro only ran into a blazing church to save a child. Which they both did, he can't be judged. ]
It is pretty late, though. Is there anything you wanted to say or ask me right now, or... would you rather lay down and get some sleep?
[ He's fine with bedsharing and small kisses. Besides, snuggling might help Kokichi sleep, it's not necessarily a romantic gesture. ]
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[Kokichi pauses. The faintest hint of a smirk flickers onto his face.]
You know, if things were just like normal, I'd tease you for finding a prime opportunity to keep me close. But you're probably even more of a gentleman than Gonta. So that doesn't mean anything.
[Which is odd, because he's so used to being...no, wait, even then declarations were being made to protect him. When did he become some kind of princess?]
I'm fine with getting some rest. But I'm gonna cuddle you, okay?
[Not necessarily, but Kokichi's definitely not opposed to the thought.]